When I step out of the now, I can easily stop enjoying being mum!
I have come to realise over the last 8 months (since Sheannah’s birth) that whenever I step out of the NOW moment of being a mum, I can become quite frustrated, impatient and even at times bored with my new “chosen” role as full time mother! .
When I step out of the now, I can easily stop enjoying being mum, which feels really bad and makes my heart ache. I loose the love, the joy, the fulfillment of my every mothering moment – the key to staying here is definitely in finding balance and staying in the NOW, which allows so much love and joy to be taken from every moment. I was reminded of this again only yesterday
You see, I am really committed to being the main carer for my daughter during the first 8 years of her life, something I did not have the luxury of doing when my 20 year old son and 18 year old daughter were babies. I know the role I am undertaking is an honour, a privilege and I value the opportunity to connect with Sheannah on this level so very very much. I also value the opportunity to grow as a woman through this beautiful journey we are sharing together. In addition I truly believe that it is vitally important that I be present in Sheannah’s life at this early stage, to ensure that she is energetically supported, has lots of fun, a healthy lifestyle, and that she is given every opportunity to keep her heart open and remain connected to her souls destiny. It is indeed a very important role I have been gifted with ‘to be the mum of this new frequency child’ and I am honouring it to the best of my ability (as lets face it all mothers do!).
So to yesterday. With my newly birthed passion for this NFC program and spirit really encouraging me to get moving with it, as well as my other service – I have had to find a place of balance in order to honour my mothering commitments and my service. To be honest this was a bit tricky initially, because I have had to really change the way I work significantly. I can’t just sit down and work whenever I am inspired anymore!
I have found that if I feel I am meant to be doing something else (like writing an article, updating a website, creating a new product.. whatever) and I am having to focus on the everyday needs of my baby (you know change nappies, wash clothes, keep the house tidy, feed, sleep, bath, go shopping for food, or on an outing…) I can easily step out of the NOW moment and start thinking about that which I have to do – as a result I instantly start to feel all the uncomfortable feelings I mentioned earlier, frustration, impatience, dissatisfaction. And I do not choose that for myself, my daughter or the rest of my family.
So what I have come up with – is working for me and I would like to share it with you. Sheannah loves playing with other children so very much, she was 7 months old and I got the strongest intuitive knowing that it was time for her to start day care – limited time of course. So she now goes to day care 2 days a week (family care, at a beautiful ladies home, who does not beleive in chemicals and is very natural in her appraoch, with a big open heart). Sheannah has loved it from day one and much to my surprise so have I. It means that two days a week, I can work non stop on my service all day long. On the other days, I can catch an hour here and there while she has her nap, or in the evening as needed. When inspiration hits, I have a journal and I quickly jot things down into it – keeping them for when it is my work moment.
So the trick to balance for me is, when Sheannah is awake and it is not a day-care day, she and my family are my priority and my passion. I do not think about having to do anything else. I stay in the moment and love it. Then when it is her nap time, in the evening when she is asleep, or it is one of her daycare days – I focus totally on me and what I want to do with that time “which lately has been all about getting this NFC program off the ground”. I feel fabulous with this balance in my life and I am getting really good at maintaining it…most of the time.
Oops so again back to yesterday. OK I lost it – I lost the NOW. You see I really wanted to get the welcome video for this website recorded and uploaded before the weekend was over – because I needed Darryn’s help to do it and he was back to work Monday morning. I wanted this site to be live by the end of next week… So I stepped out of the now and started projecting to the afternoon and all the things I needed to organise, control and do to make the video shoot happen. BANG – before I knew it, I was so frustrated. I had turned a fun trip to the forest, in which I would casually record a message, amidst our play time “keeping it real”, into a regimented and unpleasant journey, trying to make Sheannah stay still, be quiet etc while I got everything organised. x*!!
So I had to stop….. walk away, take 100 deep breaths, and get clear on what this was about. It was a Saturday, it was family time, and if the video was going to happen, it would happen naturally, without struggle, in a real and authentic way – where was my faith that Spirit would come through and let it flow when the time was perfect… LET IT GO KYRONA!!
It worked, I stepped back into the now (which by the way wasn’t easy, because this is really important to me and I can be a touch perfectionist when it comes to my service/work). We did have a fun time, though I admit, it was not as easy as I thought to speak freely with a camera on me, a daughter and son jumping around behind it, strangers walking by to take a squizz and quite a few mosquitoes to contend with, oh and I had run out of baby wipes – of course that meant Sheannah had to do a poo!… but my welcome video has come out just right I am sure. Because it came out real… and the energy of the Buderim forrest was just perfect, nurturing and peaceful – as I knew it needed to be for the welcome message.
So there you have it a short…. ok a long – quite therapeutic I might add…. pearl of wisdom from one mum to you.
The motto – do find a way to compartmentalise your you time, so that you can truly focus on mum when it is your mum time and stay in the moment, maintaining the power and the joy of that moment, moment by moment by moment.
Be loved and Be Free