Mother’s guilt…. It feels terrible, it brings up fear, it dis-empowers us, it disconnects us from Spirit – let it go!
Mother’s guilt…. It feels terrible, it brings up fear, it dis-empowers us, it disconnects us from Spirit… yesterday I had a little trip in mother’s guilt land and it was not fun! So today I am inspired to share my experience and my lessons with all mothers out there – because I know I am not alone!
So in my heart and even my conscious mind, I know I am doing the very best I can to love and support my little angel Sheannah. She is very blessed to be a member of our family, very clever to have chosen us as parents!
Goodness I have created this New Frequency Child Program to share all the wonderful things I have learned and applied in this motherhood journey so far – so how can it be that I have days when I think, I am not BEing enough for her! How crazy am I?….
I am not crazy, it is an epidemic in women’s psyche (you especially see it in the birthing journeys of women), it is created by societies centuries of erosion of the Divine Feminine and our birthright to be empowered honoured mothers….not to fear, times are definitely changing and it starts with me and you.
So to my tale of woe…
It starts yesterday when for no particular reason, I was feeling that I was not stimulating Sheannah enough, that I was becoming mundane, I was not playing with her enough or making her laugh enough, I was not giving her the right diet… oh my house wasn’t clean enough, I hadn’t exercised enough lately, I was spending too much time on the computer and phone (an hour if I was lucky all day I might add)… yadda yadda yadda… you get the picture.
In my defence for what it’s worth, I guess I was tired (due to an unsettled night and her waking at 4.30am, and there was a heat wave outside – so I didn’t want to go outdoors). She seemed to be more grizzly and clingy than usual too (I suspect picking up on a global fear release –that I myself now realise I was picking up on too).
Lets face it she is 9 months old and there is only so much I can do physically to play with her – she is too busy for more than ½ a book nowadays, she cant sit still long enough to draw, she can’t sit still long enough to do much at all these days, she is totally focused on crawling, standing, opening and closing doors and drawers (and hurting her fingers in the process), exploring everything with her hands and mouth… of course she can’t communicate in English verbally yet either so that limits a lot of things too (though we do have telepathic communications to support us). I have to do chores sometimes too, I can’t just run around all day long playing little short games one after the other, as she wants me too.
So we had an excursion to the shops and bought her her first doll – mmh she actually doesn’t seem that impressed with it (I think she thinks its silly to cuddle and inanimate object… oh well). We had breakfast, lunch and dinner. We played with a ball. We danced and sang for a while….. I even gave her a little healing…. So what was my issue??
Really it seems that the issue was all mine and collectively as humanity ours! I was just having one of those mother guilt – I am not good enough sort of days! What I didn’t do was snap myself out of my melancholy! No I wallowed in it all day!
Note to self……Kyrona – seriously…. You are a great mum, you are doing the very best you can and surrounding your baby with love, love and more love. That is enough! You are enough! Let go of all this societal programming that has dis-empowered mothers throughout time and honour yourself as a woman and a mother. GIVE YOURSELF A BIG HUG AND SAY YOU ARE DOING A FANTASTIC JOB!! ALL IS WELL!
Ahhhhhh – that feels much better… In the light of a new day, all is well and I move forward with a promise not to be so hard on myself again. When and if this raises its head again, I am going to remember this lesson and stop it… make a cup of tea and give myself a big hug!
Sending lots of love your way – you are a fantastic mother too!!!